http://www.stubbornfishtales.com My journey to becoming the "Me" God wants me to be. Tue, 07 Feb 2012 04:28:37 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/#comments Tue, 29 Nov 2011 01:43:31 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1359 It’s been tough. I failed at the thankfulness countdown. More trauma. The babe might be moved soon. Too soon. We are appealing the decision, but I have no confidence. Jeremiah’s situation is so up in the air. Where will he be? Who can help him? What role are we supposed to play? How much can [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/feed/ 2 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/#comments Fri, 28 Oct 2011 00:09:21 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1325 Well, I’ll get to that. I met my friend Lindsay at the Parenting in SPACE conference back in April, ya’ know, right before everything EXPLODED. We immediately clicked. I think our first conversation was about how our trauma kids smell….like, bad. We are both drama geeks, and we both love to laugh, even when it’s [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/#comments Sat, 22 Oct 2011 03:13:09 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1311 I’m finally starting to feel like the real me. It is my theory that when you are living in trauma for a really long time, especially when you are required to have extreme self-awareness and self-control during that extended trauma, you start to lose sight of who you really are, because it all becomes a [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/#comments Fri, 02 Sep 2011 02:24:40 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1298 I had to apologize today… for being young, and naive, and head strong; for not seeing the signs, even when people tried to tell me; for letting love…or was it pride…blind my eyes. I had to say I’m sorry… for getting angry over what I knew was true, but didn’t want to be true, and [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/07/01/just-an-update/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/07/01/just-an-update/#comments Sat, 02 Jul 2011 01:24:26 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1285 I’m so sorry I have been so absent. I wouldn’t apologize except that I know that I get worried when I don’t hear from my blogger friends for a while. So here’s the update: Things are tough. Jeremiah is at the psyche ward right now due to a week of chaos. Our simple hope is [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/07/01/just-an-update/feed/ 4 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/18/my-week-of-different/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/18/my-week-of-different/#comments Sun, 19 Jun 2011 02:45:47 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1280 This week has been very different. Jeremiah is in respite with a good friend who has a therapeutic youth ranch. He’s serving, and hopefully healing. He’s not here. That’s different. Because Jeremiah is not here, I can actually go into the next room without thinking about where everything is and what is missing when I [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/18/my-week-of-different/feed/ 2 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/05/this-week/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/05/this-week/#comments Mon, 06 Jun 2011 01:19:44 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1272 This week I hope that… My garden seeds will finally get here, and that the weather will cooperate so I can actually get them in the ground. Jeremiah will use his head instead of his butt (our new catchphrase) and will find other ways of amusing himself other than finding ways to try to piss [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/05/this-week/feed/ 0 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/03/updates-in-bullet-points/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/03/updates-in-bullet-points/#comments Sat, 04 Jun 2011 03:11:27 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1269 Gabe is fine. Now that he is 18 and making his own life choices, I will refrain from writing too much about him, other than how his choices are affecting me as his mom. Right now, I miss him and am not really sure how to be. Still working on that. Jeremiah is really struggling. [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/06/03/updates-in-bullet-points/feed/ 0 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/05/23/dont-know-how-today/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/05/23/dont-know-how-today/#comments Tue, 24 May 2011 02:30:25 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1255 2 Corinthians 2:5-11 “5 If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you to some extent—not to put it too severely. 6 The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient. 7 Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/05/23/dont-know-how-today/feed/ 0 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/05/20/more-baby-e-and-some-hope-for-jeremiah-hopefully/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/05/20/more-baby-e-and-some-hope-for-jeremiah-hopefully/#comments Fri, 20 May 2011 21:54:05 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1247 I went to visit Baby E again today. She was sleeping when I arrived, so I scooped her up and rocked her, singing and singing. She never stirred besides a few grunts and groans. I love that little face. She seems very peaceful. The nurse said she had a good day and that she is [...]

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