http://www.stubbornfishtales.com My journey to becoming the "Me" God wants me to be. Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:58:36 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2012/01/09/you-guessed-it-more-transitions/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2012/01/09/you-guessed-it-more-transitions/#comments Mon, 09 Jan 2012 17:26:43 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1406 I’m not going to do a post summarizing 2011. Not going to do it. Why? Oh, because 2011 SUCKED! Right up to the end. And I wouldn’t be able to share very much about why it sucked, so it’s just not worth it. 2012 has started out with slightly less trauma, because we only had [...]

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]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/12/11/1373/feed/ 2 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/12/10/christmas-traditions-then/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/12/10/christmas-traditions-then/#comments Sun, 11 Dec 2011 01:49:15 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1369 I love the stories behind how traditions are formed. Growing up we had a lot of Christmas traditions, and as a kid I took them as a given. It wasn’t until later that I found out the simple reasons that formed those traditions. For example, we always open all of our presents on Christmas Eve, [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/12/10/christmas-traditions-then/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/#comments Tue, 29 Nov 2011 01:43:31 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1359 It’s been tough. I failed at the thankfulness countdown. More trauma. The babe might be moved soon. Too soon. We are appealing the decision, but I have no confidence. Jeremiah’s situation is so up in the air. Where will he be? Who can help him? What role are we supposed to play? How much can [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/28/and-im-still-thankful-on-purpose/feed/ 2 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/20/and-17-18-19-20/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/20/and-17-18-19-20/#comments Mon, 21 Nov 2011 02:23:54 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1355 I’m so thankful for: 17. Silence. This is a new discovery for me. I had the opportunity to go on a silent retreat this weekend and was blown away by how God touched my heart. More on that later I hope. 18. Chai tea and hot chocolate…together. I found some amazing chai tea that has [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/20/and-17-18-19-20/feed/ 0 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/16/im-thankful-for-15-and-16/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/16/im-thankful-for-15-and-16/#comments Thu, 17 Nov 2011 01:36:37 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1349 Here’s some more blessings I am thankful for: 15. Cloth diapers. I love our cloth diapers. We decided to use cloth long before we had a baby to diaper. When Baby E came into our lives, I almost forgot our choice until my sister-in-law reminded me, “Hey, weren’t you going to do cloth?” Oh, yeah. [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/11/16/im-thankful-for-15-and-16/feed/ 1 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/#comments Fri, 28 Oct 2011 00:09:21 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1325 Well, I’ll get to that. I met my friend Lindsay at the Parenting in SPACE conference back in April, ya’ know, right before everything EXPLODED. We immediately clicked. I think our first conversation was about how our trauma kids smell….like, bad. We are both drama geeks, and we both love to laugh, even when it’s [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/27/trauma-has-given-me/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/#comments Sat, 22 Oct 2011 03:13:09 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1311 I’m finally starting to feel like the real me. It is my theory that when you are living in trauma for a really long time, especially when you are required to have extreme self-awareness and self-control during that extended trauma, you start to lose sight of who you really are, because it all becomes a [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/10/21/who-is-this-hannah-person-again/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/#comments Fri, 02 Sep 2011 02:24:40 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1298 I had to apologize today… for being young, and naive, and head strong; for not seeing the signs, even when people tried to tell me; for letting love…or was it pride…blind my eyes. I had to say I’m sorry… for getting angry over what I knew was true, but didn’t want to be true, and [...]

]]> http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/09/01/humble/feed/ 3 http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/07/15/promise/ http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/2011/07/15/promise/#comments Sat, 16 Jul 2011 02:45:11 +0000 Hannah Rae http://www.stubbornfishtales.com/?p=1287 I will be back; And we will be glad, you and I, because that means that we have survived. In the mean time, we pray, you and I, and hold onto His promises. I promise. Blessings! Hannah

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